finding my darkness (self reflection)

     It seems yet again my fellow that I write this, in a midst of momentary insomnia I'm true to applaud myself, to have found a new low in the domain of my thoughts and moral makeup. Perhaps to divulge it would allow my mind to stop hindering my bio-clock.


   I have no sympathy for the reaction of the dead in this recent bombing in Boston. In fact I hate it. Not really because I like the fact people died, but rather that people are making such a fuss of this. America is not the world, America is not the centre of good and God.


   One sees a people face bombings, not 2, nor even 3, but a great multiple, in Nations as Iraq, Yemen and Syria, yet the reactions are not but non-existent. How as an observer of existence and as one who's part of it not be shocked and bewildered. Am I to question if the American blood is greater than the one who dies by the American bomb? Is it disgusting for a man to reach such low to question these things in the 1st place?

    To put life against life. I will not stand for my nafs (ego) as it presides on this new low. How dare such an insignificant person as I, not see that the loss of life in such a way in a place where it is uncommon is bound to be of shock, I saw this in myself when the uprising in Bahrain began. I should at least be more understanding.


This is as far as my thoughts go for now. To where I end up I do not know. Lord have Mercy

The first conflict among men

Found this amazing passage from the Quran =) it opened my eyes:

"Tell them the truth about the story of Adam's two sons: each of them offered a sacrifice, and it was accepted from one and not the other. One said, 'I will kill you,' but the other said, 'God only accepts the sacrifice of those who are mindful of Him. If you raise your hand to kill me, I will not raise mine to kill you. I fear God, the Lord of all worlds, and I would rather you were burdened with my sins as well as yours and become an inhabitant of the Fire: such is the evildoers' reward.' But his soul prompted him to kill his brother: he killed him and became one of the losers. God sent a raven to scratch up the ground and show him how to cover his brother's corpse and he said, 'Woe is me! Could I not have been like this raven and covered up my brother's body?' He became remorseful. On account of [his deed], We decreed to the Children of Israel that if anyone kills a person -unless in retribution for murder or spreading corruption in the land- it is as if he kills all mankind, while if any save a life it is as if he saves the lives of all mankind." - [ The Feast 5: 27-32]

I would love to explain what I got from it, but I fear restricting it's full picture with my small views.

Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. on Violence

‎Why I believe in non-aggression.

"The ultimate weakness of violence is that it is a descending spiral, begetting the very thing it seeks to destroy. Instead of diminishing evil, it multiplies it. Through violence you may murder the liar, but you cannot murder the lie, nor establish the truth. Through violence you may murder the hater, but you do not murder hate. In fact, violence merely increases hate. So it goes: Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only LIGHT can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only LOVE can do that." -- The Reverend Martin Luther King, Jr.